We just let it happen.

Rumbling like thunder as the deadly darts shoot through the air hit their targets and explode.
Deadly missiles directed at the innocent by enraged politicians after money and power.
How the innocent suffer for a price only known to those in power.
Excuses made in abundance to cover up the real meaning and divert us from the truth.
Our lads and lasses exposed to the anger of the raging mob as they battle for their existence in foreign lands.
Oh how I weep for those that have laid down their lives for our freedom.
Where is it though?
How I question their actions, over and over it goes in my mind like a cement mixer in overdrive.
Our way of life threatening that of others hundreds or thousands of miles away, yet I feel their pain.
Our regime forces itself on others oppressing the weak for them to crumble to our way of thinking.
Dictators they said removing heads of state for themselves to fill their empty seat.
Stealing their resources for their own needs and we just let it happen.

Animal Newsround

After extensive research the government has come up with yet another flawless Idea. Pets are to be taxed on the number of legs they have. By taxing pets the government is set to raise over 500 trillion pounds a year. Statistics show that due to the amount of animals in the country there is a shortage of pet food. Gordon Brown and Tony Blair are exempt from the tax as they created it.

Government officials found that ants have more intelligence than most in government today. Communities in there millions live together and get along wonderfully. Schools are being set up across the country to educate us on their habits so as to teach us humanity. However race discrimination will not be tolerated amongst black and red ants. Any comments on this issue will not be tolerated and severely punished.

Horses are said to be setting up a bridge society groups across the country are meeting in local pubs and clubs to play the wonderful game. Peibald neigh made this comment “ we the Shetlands are hoping to set up a competition to see which group of horses are the best. A tournament will be held next month to determine the winners.
Lets just hope it’s a roaring success.

The queen earlier this week put her Corgi’s into a children’s home for training. The dogs have been reported for crapping all over Buckingham Palace and the cleaner has gone down with dog flu. Some say the queen has gone barking mad but an insider today made this comment. “The dogs are happy and after a little chat with the queen they have finally got the message and decided that training was their only option”

And finally rabbits across the country are up in arms over the latest development on mix mitosis. Millions are reported to be queuing up outside chemists for a cure and a spokesman for the local shepherds branch made this comment. “If it keeps up like this we will make an absolute fortune this year, shame the rabbits have to suffer though”

Forever do i think of you,
you hair your touch your eyes so blue,
to want you in a lovers grasp
to feel you in ways lovers do,
my sweet you know just who you are
and may our love and passion grow from afar. xxxxx

It's a wierd and wnoderful journey I am on at the moment, a journey of self discovery and expression, I have met some truely wonderful inspireing people on my way, made some wonderful friends who give me encouragement, and dont put me down egging me on the right path and above all they believe in me. In my writing group we have been invited to an open mic evening in which i took part in shareing my works, it was a success and we were invited to attend a bigger event to share our works, I am so pleased that things are coming together and I am slowly getting recognition. It excites me knowing that this next event there will be a large attendance of well known writers and poets to listen to the performers its a real opportunity not just for me but also other writers. Who knows it may lead to my very own book being published which excites me very much. Having had some of my work published in a book already I know how it feels and the thought of it is soul inspireing expirience. I will see how it goes and I will keep praying :0)

Feel the music


I let the music caress me, filling me with joy, tonal pleasure adjoining memory and feeling.
Taking me on a journey into past, emotions able to run wild in frenzy as the songs chop and change.
Joyous songs as I remember the fondness of past loves, memory serving me as a reminder to lustful playful times.
Faces come together as I ponder, how beautiful to remember the times with such pleasure.
New songs to give me new found meaning to my life, creating a new chapter and a new wave of freshness.
How I love the different styles as I mix and match to suit mood.
Some songs barely able to touch and listen too as tears will form for lost love or past trauma.
It truly is a pleasure to have the privilege, a right even to be free in choice of sound.
Freedom even in my own domain, in my space after all it was my life and I am somewhat free to choose.

This week has been quite productive and I am looking forward to a fresh start, I have a few things on the horizon wich I am looking into and hope that something positive comes out of it. Will have to look into it in more depth and find out exactly what I can and can't do. It's been a long time since I was last in work and I am a litttle worried to say the least. Will see though, hopefully things will go well. Just have to wait and see what Doc sais.

As voices echo in distant paragraphs of my life i feel the new found freedom in my heart.
Too long have I listend to thier weary cries wearing me down to a meer nothingness.
I tremble in thier wake no more as I am alive again in my mind, free of thier grasp.
Sedated in bonds of pharmasutical wellness, I ease myself in newness aware of past trauma.
I am able to fight the wicked seducer of my mind, no longer curdled to the core and reaching aimlessly into nothingness no more.
No appologies do I offer myself for past behaviour as it was not I but my meer shell that harnessed the power of my life then.
Crave do i the freshness of my new being, the lust I have found in edifying gulps and crisp clean passion for myself no longer the old that i was.
Purified in Christ I now walk tall.

Well I have been really high in spirits, I have been given an opportunity to express my poetry at an open mic in a little town called Pontypridd. I am really excited at the fact I can share my works with others and it is also a good opportunity to get recognition as there are Welsh Publishers attending too. I have a five minute spot for recital and i have been getting material ready. I will also be reciting some old poems I wrote for a book that was published last year as we also have a spot for the promotion of the book, all in all the 11th of Febraury will be an exciting day all round. For the book recitals we have also got a 5 minute spot shared between 4 of us Yay im so excited. Details were confirmed this morning.

Falling fast falling free it really does not have to be
I search i scream i cry out loud i do not want to see
Deepened pit agahst in life its time to just let go
My past is free from hiding i'll let everybody know
Freedom in my piece of mind freedom in my life
No more to turn the clocks aback away with all the strife
Its time to push the button kid time to let it out
No more to feel the pain of past no more the need to shout.

I have not posted for a couple of days and all i can say to that is I have been a little under the weather. I have not had the energy to write anything much but i am on the way up now. Looking forward to the rest of the week with open arms.

They say things happen for a reason, and i feel that i have made the right choice. I have given up on social networking it was entertaining whilst it lasted. I found too many people were so horrible to one and other and so many biggotary comments racist remarks i could not take part no longer. I dont feel bad about it i am not upset, i just feel that it was not for me. It really has been a wierd few days and i am glad i have taken these steps. Well i will miss some of the friends i have made but i am sure they will contact me if they want to.
I must admit though sometimes it was worse than being in the school playground, you get bullies wherever you go.

things have been pretty wild lately but i seem to have things well undr control. I have had some really wierd days some of which i completely dont understand or even try to understand i just let it go over my head for want of a better explanation. It has not broken me or forced to me to feel bad about myself as i have just taken it for what it is ands not let it affect me. so i am pretty happy with things all round. When i felt like this before i tried to figure out as to why but no i just take it for what it is. case of having to really.

Had a pretty rough night last night, chest nose eyes all sore to this dammn cold, not to worry tomorrow is another day.

Weary eyes, sleep filled and watery
Body aching head pounding wearily
Tossed and turned mind numb
Nose blocked coughing fits overcome
I feel the day alright
especially then i tollerated the night
Days long nights longer
How i wish for peaceful slumber

Its always the same! i had so many poems running through my head today and when i got home nothing would come to light. i just sat there on my keyboard for nearly 2 hours and nothing, i had to think really hard just as i gave up and sat down to relax bang as usual and i had already turned everything off, i suppose it was just one of those days but i managed one in the end, so i gave myself a pat on the back and i thought i would share it with you.

The tired I my energy low
I try so hard i think you know
I feel the blue i hit the lows
and glide back up or so it goes
I love my life for what i am
Although the most was one big joke
They said your strong and your a bloke
A weary whore to life i think
abused and used my past did stink
Who cares for that now i am free
Free to live my life and be

I was a bit upset today to find out a friend of mine was talking about me yet again on a public networking site. He did not say anything bad it was more to the point that he mentioned something i had done and this time was not even true and i had asked him not to do it on numerous occasions. After confronting him yet again he set out to try and humiliate me by posting a public adress apologising, but also at the same time leaving a sarcastic remark. It never did have that effect though i just feel sorry for him. Still we learn through others i suppose.

Well I have come down with the Flu, it was inevitable really but I am glad. I finally got a great nights sleep and i thouroly enjoyed it. I started feeling ill last night and although I am still in considerable pain my ailment finaally gave me that much needed rest i sought after. Well even though i feel like a car has run over me i have been invited to my local club to renew my membership i am going to go why not, it will make a nice change to sitting in front of my screen. Maybe a drink or two aswell.

It was a nice surprise today having my daughter, i will also have her tomorrow. It was a shame though that she is really quite ill with the flu. She clung to me today and would not let go, i had to snuggle her in to me and comfort her as she was quite distressed, it is a shame that her mother had to work today, in a sense as it was too wet and windy for my daughter to be out, but i was flattered that she asked me to have her. We seem to be getting on a bit betterr now which is good fo rmy daughter although there is still a long way to go before we are friends again. I just thank the lord for small blessings.

I posted theese pictures for you to see where i live and why it means so much to me living here, i love this valley with a passion for all its beauty and i am fortunate to have this on my doorstep.